Sunday, December 16, 2007
- living.in.my.own.world -
I realised that i have been living in my own world... for a very long time....
Its bad huh... Getting all satisfied and happy with myself and myself only. Hoping that all the people around me can get used to who i am. Not that i have a bad temper or what that people have to accommodate me, its just that i'm just too happy with myself and living in my own comfort zone.
Comfort zone is sweet and poisonous. When you get too comfy with urself, it will start to kill you. AND... i think im killing myself. I am too comfy with myself!
But how can i step out of it? I hope i can find the answer myself.
I'm aching like mad now. Did ashtanga for the first time yesterday cos the lase few weeks, i cancelled all ashtanga last min. I felt like i'm under some kind of physical training in class yesterday. Celeste was like commando giving super stern instructions. Phew~~~ i'm glad i survived through the whole session. I'm glad i'm able to do at least 4-5 times of chaturanga before i went all soft and wobbly. But perhaps i should go power class more to train up on vinyasa.
I realised i haven't been crying. Ok this is not saddist or what but crying sure make oneself feel better. I really feel like crying yesterday but really hold back. I think i too "geng". Refuse to leak out anything abt myself. Argh... shitty... haiz...
My mom's barley ginko sure make me feel good. Eating that now and at the same time for each spoonful i eat, i feel more pretty. I have been busy this whole month, meeting friends...
I'm skipping from one topic to another. Very random...
nice.weekend! :)
4:48 PM; the pieces
